One more minute. One more click. One more kill.
Just one more minute. That’s all. Then I’m done. Then I can sleep.
I can’t sleep, I’ll play for one more minute, one more click, one more kill.
I picked up World of Warcraft about three weeks ago. It’s a massive multi-player online role playing game. I like to think of myself as being on the edge of nerdism. I have the capability, and choose to be, to interact with actual people outside of the computer. I try to stay away from video games like this because, well, they start to consume my life. Addiction to a game like World of Warcraft is too easy. But, after both Frank and Kyle started playing, I didn’t want to be left out.
So now I’m in, addicted, just like everyone else.
Courtney has been kind about it. I try to limit my online time to an hour or two and when we have schedule conflicts. I’m waiting for the time she has to pull me away after a 10 hour stint that included 18 Mountain Dews. I’m hoping I give up before then.
To make matters worse, Chad and I started using Skype to communicate while playing. Courtney drew the line with me when I started insisting that we only communicate with Chad through the computer. I was pleasantly surprised at the quality of the VOIP service. Last time I attempted to call someone over the internet was circa 1998, when my brother was living in the dorms at Madison and I had a one way cable modem. The service was subpar. Any internet surfing done during our conversation caused the voice communication to breakdown. Chad and I are able to chat away with very little, if any, interruptions. Still, Court will not have anything to do with it.
I started reading A Million Little Pieces to keep me away from the computer as much as possible. It’s a first-hand account of a drug addict’s recovery at Hazelden. I picked it up after 3 separate people all suggested it to me within one week. The only catch, it had just been added to Oprah’s book club. I was assured that I would still enjoy it, even if Oprah enjoyed it too. I’m half way through it, at my typical breaking point. I have a horrible tendency to leave a book half way in if it doesn’t keep my attention. I’m having to fight my way through the rest of this one. The first 100 pages were stunning, almost breathtaking. Frey recounts every minor detail of every situation which allows the reader to become emotionally involved. He shares his addiction with you. His writing style is more of a stream-of-conciousness. He uses no quotation marks and repeats himself, repeatedly. To me it feels like how my brain processes things over and over and over again.
So why am I stuck? I’ve hit a dry spot. Eventually he is bound to turn the corner right? Rehab sucks, treatment sucks, everyone sucks, right? That’s the gist of the book. It’s a 400+ page novel. Around page 140 he flips. Life is no longer hard. Sure, he’s getting rehabilitated which is making his life that much easier. But it also makes it monotonous. That’s part of rehab though. Give people a pattern, a rut they can follow. Give them a path to walk down so they don’t have to think about it. It just makes for some repetitive reading at some point.
Now I’m assured that it picks up again soon. So I’m fighting through the dryspell. I’ll let you know what I think when I finally finish it. Hopefully soon.