I can’t honestly say that I’ve dreaded going to work on a Monday for quite some time. It’s probably been 2-3 years since I’ve sat on the couch Sunday night and wished that I didn’t have to face Monday. But today is one of those days. I am seriously contemplating why I’m going to work tomorrow. I fear everything that comes with tomorrow.

On Friday Ciceron laid off 4 people including Rico. I was lucky enough to make the cut. It makes me wonder why I was “chosen” to stay. I’m quite confused as to why I DIDN’T get let go. Rico is a good friend. Something like this puts me between a rock and a hard place. I have to be loyal both to my good friend and the company which pays me. It’s hard to suck it up and say tomorrow will be a new day when all I keep thinking is, “When will I get it?” For a company fo 28, laying off 4 people is huge. Ciceron is built on friendships, unlike large corporations. Which makes Ciceron a unique place to work. It must have been quite hard for the owners to pick the people to be laid off. It had to be done though. I can’t help but feel there was some sort of political motive behind who was chosen though. If it was truly a financial decision wouldn’t seniority play a part? Then again, who am I to judge?